I AM A BEAUTIFUL MONSTER

@FRANCKKINANGA_

Franck Kinanga, is a Franco-Congolese film photographer & director based in Paris. This series was inspired by the model Ines herself and a text she wrote about body dismorphic disorder.

MENTAL HEALTH CHECK UP: ITā€™S BEEN A LONG JOURNEY TO FINALLY WRITE THIS DOWN BUT ALSO TO SAY IT OUT LOUD TODAY. I HAVE A BODY DYSMORPHIC DISORDER! SOME OF YOU ALL THINK THAT BECAUSE I SMILE OR TAKE PICTURES OF MY BODY IM DOING GREAT. NOPE I’M NOT !

INES

ALWAYS CHECKING IF YOU GAINED WEIGHT, CHECKING YOUR BODY 100 TIMES A DAY.
I DO NOT TAKE PICS TO PLEASE YOU PEOPLE BUT TO FEEL BETTER! TO IMMORTALIZE THIS MOMENT BECAUSE I AM SCARED TO GO BACK TO WHERE Iā€™VE BEEN. AND THIS SOCIETY IS NOT HELPING ME, ALWAYS COMPARING OUR BODIES, ALWAYS GIVING AN OPINION ON WOMENā€™S BODIES!

INES

TODAY IS THE DAY I FINALLY ADMIT THAT Iā€™M HEALING FROM ALL THESE TRAUMAS. LOOK AT ME GIGGLING AT MY STOMACH AND BACK ROLLS ! I WAS TAUGHT I WAS OBESE!!! DONā€™T LET THE SMILE FOOL YOU! ITā€™S SO HARD YOU DONT EVEN KNOW HOW! THATā€™S A THERAPY AND NO, A SHRINK IS NOT ENOUGH, AND MOST OF ALL I DO NOT SEEK ANY VALIDATION!

INES

I KNOW A LOT OF YOU GUYS WILL TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THESE TYPE OF POSTS BUT I DO NOT GIVE A DAMN, ALL OF THIS WOULDNā€™T HAPPEN TO US IF YOU STAYED IN YOUR LANE ! AND NOT GIVING YOUR OPINION ON SOMETHING THAT IS NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS. YOU CAN SUPPORT, BUT DONā€™T GIVE AN OPINION. THIS ā€œDUMPā€ IS NOT EVEN THE HALF OF THE PICTURES I HAVE. MY EXES THOUGHT I WAS TAKING NUDES WHILE THIS IS ACTUAL BDD.

INES

PHOTOGRAPHER: FRANCK KINANGA @FRANCKKINANGA_
MODEL / MAKE UP / STYLIST: INES @AMAWKNR
NAILS: HOUSE OF CREA @HOUSEOFCREA
JEWELRY: ALIZEE QUITMAN @QUALITY_ZEEMAN

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